I LOVE KANYE!

But when I finally got the power, what the f*ck did i do? I’m so sorry to y’all, everyone one of y’all that had to fight for my name/ Everyone of y’all a year ago that I made feel ashamed/ Everyone that said “Kanye is that n*gga quick [inaudible] my name, And all ya’ll…I am the one to blame / and the people that I let down, I wanna tell you, right here, right now that I’m a new man and understand my position of power.

Yall know I'm such a Kanye fan since the College Dropout. I've always appreciated him because I always felt like he was outwardly displaying the crap most of us have going on deep below the surface. I like how he's sharing even more of himself as he promotes his new project. Check it:

Another 28 Days...

I am a firm believer in detoxing and 2-3 times a year, I do some sort of cleanse. It generally involves no alcohol, processed food, red meat or sugar. I also try to implement some sort of spiritual element. These cleanses go for at least a month and I always feel better after. A part of me always feels like I'm in rehab when I'm on these cleanses and since rehab is defined as restoring or repairing,making habitable again, I guess I am! This month I've decided to do a couple of things. The first is I'm doing a water study. For 30 days the only beverage I'm consuming is Kangen water. (Its alkaline water and you can learn more about it at www.TheWonderWaterStory.com). I'm also reading "The 21 Day Consciousness Cleanse," by Denise Ford. Super SUPER exciting! My girl Oprah had Denise on a while ago but I had to wait for the right time to read it. This is that time!As part of my water study I had to take a snapshot of before and after (Apparently the water is going to lead to healthier, more radiant skin!). Here's me early in the morning, no makeup, no hair gel.Stay tuned to see if there's a remarkable difference at the end of the month. I'm doing this cleanse for a variety of reasons but the main one is to get in touch with my true goals and essence. I'll keep you posted on how it goes!

I'm Ready!!

Alicia Keys' latest song "Unthinkable," has made me realize not only that I'm ready but what I'm ready for! I'm not longer content living a mediocre existence. I'm ready to live up to my true potential. I'm ready to grow my business and expand my brand. I'm ready to create great stories and characters. I'm ready to enjoy my life ALL THE TIME! I'm ready to release all things that no longer serve me. I'm ready to be a better, more authentic me. I'm ready to life the life I dream about. I'm so ready!!!!

Revelation: I Enjoy Being Alone

Growing up, I was often misunderstood. The best example of this is the "You know DaVida is crazy, she doesn't like people," story that is commonplace in my family. When I was like 7 or 8, I said "I hate people," and it was so totally taken out of context.

Here's what happened. It was a Saturday morning and my Grandmother told me my cousins were coming to visit. I got instantly grouchy. I did my chores but just had this attitude. My older cousin came over and asked me what was wrong. I said I just hate people. Before I could further explain, she said something was wrong with me because I was too young to hate people. She started to joke about it and my other aunt heard her and they started teasing me. Since then whenever I have an attitude, they say oh that's just DaVida, who doesn't like people.

This has been a thing I've been trying to fix since I was young. Sometimes when I really want to just be alone, I push myself to go out and do things. This usually results in some form of BS because I've got issue with the fact I'm out instead of being by myself. I never really speak up for wanting to be alone because it sounds so selfish and harsh. (Hey that sounds awesome but I'd really rather just stay in alone than hang out with you.)

I pride myself on loving people. I enjoy hanging out like no other. I'm a social butterfly. BUT sometimes I just really need and desire to be alone! As a child I LOVED my alone time. I loved to read and watch TV, two activities I've always enjoyed more alone (no interruptions). Most of the time, on the weekends that's what I got to. My Granny and I would clean up in the morning then relax all day, with great food throughout the day. That felt great and was only interrupted when people came over. I enjoyed the family gatherings...like for holidays but on the weekends I longed for that time on the weekend where you could just do what you want to do (even if that is to stay in bed or on the sofa all day).

This weekend I realized that Oprah is always saying do what you enjoyed as a child. This weekend there was 1001 great things to do in New Orleans. But all I wanted to do was eat good, clean a bit, relax and watch TV. I love people ... every job I do is people oriented and I wouldn't have it any other way. I love my work and really enjoy being social with my clients, being all crazy with my students and interacting with all types of people at my production job. I just need a break from everyone every now and again (my dealings with others take a lot of energy-having time to recharge is so necessary). And that doesn't make me crazy, just misunderstood.