What Next?!?

Check out that picture...know who it is? That's James Franco...Yep this James Franco from Spiderman (and way too much else to list). Anyway, when I saw this pic, it embodied what I'm experiencing today. I want something else. I can't quite describe it but my current situation is simply not enough. I have a ton to be grateful for and I realize and acknowledge that but I am ready for something...else. I am sure I don't want to be a man (as Franco became a woman for this pic) but I just want to have a different experience. There's nothing more I can say that wouldn't be repetitive so I'll stop now. I just want what is next...

I'll Pay For It If I Want It

I used to love this rapper Soulja Slim from New Orleans-he was killed and his career got cut off :( My favorite song of his was "I'll Pay For It". The chorus was, "I'll pay for it, if I want it." Today I was struggling when the alarm went off at5:45am. The bed was so warm and comfy-I could have laid there all day. But there are some things I want-I want a firmer, toned body; I want greater flexibility; I want to be healthy! What am I willing to pay for it? Definitely willing to pay 30 minutes a day/4days a week and switching my eating habits to make those goals a reality! As I was working out, my mind went back to this weekend at writer's group. My piece was in need of much work. The primary reason is because I just sat down one day and started writing. I didn't do any of the fundamental steps of learning I learned in the past. I want to write a great story and I'm willing to pay for it by going back to the drawing board and starting over with my key steps in place. So while Soulja Slim was talking about paying for some errr....love and affection, I want some things that are a little more difficult to attain. But like Slim, I'm definitely willing to pay for what I want!

Fantasy Date Nite

As independent as I am and as much as I enjoy my single life, I would like to have a great date night. In a perfect world...(if this were a movie this is where the screen would go into a dream sequence)
I'd go over to see my boo who'd have an amazing place. When he opened the door he'd be so estastic to see me that he'd embrace me with a huge hug. I would be coming over straight from the store with fresh salad ingredients and a bottle of wine margarita ingredients. He'd have some food on the grill and have on ESPN...but on mute because he'd have his iPod on shuffle. I'd make us a couple of drinks and hop onto the counter and we'd talk about the day. When the meat and veggies were near done, I'd whip up the salad and set the table. We'd eat then clean up the kitchen a bit before relaxing. I'd take a shower and throw on one of his button down shirts and we'd have some more drinks and play a board game UNO! I'd be whipping his behind so he'd suggest a movie. We'd nestle in on the coach and watch something good...like LOVE JONES or FIGHT CLUB. Sigh....(and now the movie would return to real life.)

Back to School

August is upon us - time for back to school! Well I've decided I'm going back to school this year...life school that is. There are some lessons that are very pressing and I'm ready to learn them! I've devised my own curriculum and am dedicated to passing all my courses. My major course of study is self development with a focus on a more holistic lifestyle as opposed to a compartmentalized existence. I worked during high school, college and law school and am confident I can do my "school" work and maintain my day job. Here are the classes I have enrolled in:

• Career Development: This is a class I'm looking forward to. I've spent a great deal of my life working. Working REALLY hard. I now desire to work smarter. I'm ready to couple that shear brawn with focus on a particular goal. The coursebook for this class is "I Can Do Anything If Only I Knew What It Was", and the final is a complete, concise business plan and new website.
• Health/Physical Fitness: This is a HUGE course b/c it will have lasting implications on my life. I've got to get my health together. It is not that I'm NOT healthy but I'm utilizing all that I know about health and fitness. I know that I should do 30-45 minutes of cardio/4 times a week. I know I should be eating breakfast everyday. I know I need more fruits and veggies and water. I know I know I know. So since I know I must implement right? This class uses a ton of material and meets outdoors or at a gym (depending on if my job has a lowered rate) four times a week.
• Financial Freedom: I WANT TO BE FREE! Once again as I said earlier I've been working the majority of my life. My bank account does not reflect that fact. I have got to do better in this department. I've got to make several small changes and one HUGE change. I need to aggressively save for a bit. I also need to create and stick to a budget (this is going to be tough for Ms. If I Want That I Buy That). My budget has to protect my most valuable asset as well - my time! I operate well when I follow a schedule. My instructor for this course is Suze Orman and my Agape Financial Freedom guide.
  

I'd like to pick up a writing class as well. I haven't found a program I like but I am searching. I really believe this is my time and I'm willing to go above and beyond to achieve my goals!

I Just Wanna Break Out And Fly...

Learn To Fly from Christian Letruria on Vimeo.

I Want To Go Shopping!!!

I really REALLY want to go shopping. I haven't gotten anything new from the store in forever. I don't know the last time I got new shoes. I'm overdue a shopping trip and I'd love to get a few things! I want some new stuff man! I want to go to Sephora and get some goodies. I want a new bag. I want some new tights. I want a cute new blazer and several new dresses. I want a scarf. And its not all for me - I want to buy my little cousin a baptism gift, and I know two cute babies w/bdays approaching. I also owe lil' sis her 17th bday gift. ARGH I want ... I want .... I want.... ARGH!

I WANT TO GO SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!