My first job in Hollywood was being an assistant to Vincent Cirrincione, a taent manager whose clients include Halle Berry and Taraji P. Henson. Ms. Berry is a WONDERFUL woman, ridiculously beautiful and genuine - her beauty is only overshadowed by her REAL kindness and warmth. She would literally SHINE everytime I saw her. When I moved to Louisiana and heard the Hurricane Chris song "She's Fine", I was appalled. I immediately called Vince - surely some copyright infringement or use of her name liability was in play - I wanted to let him know ASAP so he could call the lawyers! How dare this rapper kid use her name. That's how I can sometimes be - wanting every thing in order, no room for any inappropriateness, especially when it comes to my career (I'm sure I've written before about how I never knew how to just be out in L.A. because I didn't want to risk looking a certain way because of the implications to my career). But then I see the YouTube clip of her on Ellen and I realized that sometimes you just have to let the need to control everything go and just have fun with life. It appears she embraced the song and had really had fun with it! I mean with further thought, how could you not have fun with the fact there is a song (with matching dance) that only expresses how fine you are!?!?!! And the best part was she can really do the dance! I learned a lot from Ms. Berry - first from a distance as a fan and then up close while working with Vince. Today I realize she's still teaching me lessons ... this one is to relax a bit and enjoy the spoils of your career!
As you know, the plan for the weekend was organizing my office space. The intent was to create a space where I felt inspired to well create. I wanted a room where I felt comfortable being me and pursuing my artistic endeavors. Well here goes ...
Now, a few things. My goal was to do a huge Molly Sims inspired wall mural for the main wall. On Saturday morning my co-worker who knew I was going to do art this weekend, got me a surprise. He bought me a 2 pack of canvases to help with my day. I decided to use those instead for over my computer cart. I went with two verbs I really want to implement into everything I create - LOVE because w/o love what's the point? And SHINE because I think if I allow myself to step out of my self-implemented constraints and just SHINE, my work will speak for itself.
As far as the main wall, I decided I'm going to do a collection of photos, posters and other art work that inspires me. This collage is the first step - it has pictures of times when I did shine or when I felt loved. It also contains encouraging cards I've received over the years that to this day make me want to be better.
I do not have the desk that I want yet. In the meantime, I'm using this dining room table my step sister got me as a house warming gift. It definitely serves the purpose. I'd ultimately like to get a desk more like this one, but for right now this will definitely do.
Finally the shelves - I didn't do cleaning :( I also need to get all of my things shipped to me from L.A. I have tons of books, degrees and pictures that will line the shelves so that is to come.
All in all, I'm satisfied with the office as it is right now! I feel that I've got a space that I can create and explore my creativity. Funny thing, as I cleaned up the floor last night an idea hit me so hard that I had to stop and right it down. (It literally brought me to tears.)I'm excited to pursue that idea in my new office space.
As per usual, I'm following a suggestion from my blogspiration *kay at apt 412. Her Molly Sims inspired quote painting has been one I've wanted to try forever ... well since I read about it on her blog. I think I'm going to go with affirmations or just a random collection of powerful, inspiring words. How exciting. I got my stencils and need to pick out my canvas and colors (I'm thinking I'm going to go with shades of blue).
I'm designing my office space this weekend as well. I wanted a computer cart from Target that was on sale last week. I got a raincheck so I'm going to go pick it up today or tomorrow (I enjoy putting things together!). I've also bought an array of cool office supplies so I'm going to set those up as well. I'm getting some frames to put up images of inspiring things so that room becomes more of an inviting space for my creative energy. YAY! That room was the one thing that made this apartment pop to me so I'm excited about getting it in order.
This weekend I'm going to stretch myself - literally. I'm going to start Saturday with yoga (looking for a class but if not I've got several videos). Then I'm going visit my "counselor" DK to delve into some more "me" stuff. This weekend we are getting to the core of some of my issues so I think an AM yoga session will have me ready to dig deep. I'll probably need a nap after that before I get knee deep into my world.
I wanted to go see VALENTINO:THE LAST EMPEROR but looks like I had the dates wrong and it is no longer playing in New Orleans. BOO!!! But maybe I'll find something else equally inspiring to do at some point this weekend. I'm checking out other indie movies playing and looking into art exhibits.
I'm most excited because my weekend is filled with activities and not just "new restaurants I want to try". Here's to an artistic weekend.
(Oh and the pic up top is my go at being a graf artist. Emily -shown here- a friend of a person I used to know, invited me to her party a couple weekends ago. It was so artistically inspiring. Not only did guests bring work to exhibit, we were able to tag the wall outside in her garage. Talk about fun!!!!)
Example 1: I was watching Bravo's "Make Me a Supermodel" last night and I was blown away by this one contestant, Sandhurst. First of all, this man is beautiful - his face is structured in such a way that I would describe as perfection. And his body ... well to quote him, "I am an African God and everyone wants to see me naked." WOW! Hmmm, this man makes me want to go to Trinidad. Click here and go to slide 7 for his full physique (LOL! He's supposedly modeling the gloves ... it took me a while to even notice he had gloves on last night!).
Example 2: Olaine Barrett. He's from Jamaica. He's a supermodel. He's beautiful. Yeah, don't have to say to much more on this one.
Example 3: I must say beautiful again. Cristiano Ronaldo. He is from Portugal and plays soccer for Manchester. I don't know crap about soccer but if he's playing, I'm watching. He is not just so freaking cute, but he is soooooooooo fine!!! And he wears the freshest haircut. And he is "cool" b/c last year he was in L.A. and frequented all the cool spots (don't worry I didn't stalk him but oh how I wanted to).
So those are my top international men for right now (just the ones that popped to mind today). I know our American boys are hotties too but I think I want to explore what the rest of the world has to offer. If you could go on a man excursion (just to look) where would you visit and why?
- Sometimes I am so confused that I can not act - I just retreat to my house and withdraw from everything and everyone.
- Sometimes I get angry with myself because I don't feel like I'm living to my full potential.
- Sometimes I act like I'm okay when I'm not because I just don't feel like talking about it.
- Sometimes I feel selfish because I withdraw this way - it is kind of shady to disappear.
- Sometimes I'm so happy I can not compose myself.
- Sometimes I feel like I am living a dream life.
- Sometimes I feel like the dream is a nightmare.
- Sometimes I wish there was a roadmap to life - just show me exactly where I'm supposed to be and I can come up with a route to get here.
- Sometimes I think I'm going to be single for the rest of my life and that saddens me.
- Sometimes I think I'm going to be single for the rest of my life and that excites me.
- Sometimes I think I'm destined for greatness.
- Sometimes I know it is me that is standing in my way.
- Sometimes I leave behind all thoughts and worries and just am and those are the best times.