I admit it - I have a very short list of girl crushes. Its nothing big, maybe 5 or so women that I crush on. My crushes are more about how I love something about their style or career more so than OMG I want to like sleep w/her LOL!. I have accepted myself for it, admitted I kinda like some girls and it is okay! LOL! But I digress ...
I randomly caught the E! True Hollywood Story of one of my crushes on Friday. It was the story of Angelina Jolie. After tuning in for an hour, I figured out my attraction to Ms. Jolie Pitt - she's a real life transformer! Angelina has played all types of roles - everything from a supermodel to a superhero to a biracial woman - and has had phenomenal acclaim for her work. She is a great actress and I have always been a fan of her career. I must admit, I've judged her for her relationship choices. I've heard myself say she's a home wrecker and things of that nature on several occasions. I've also wondered about her whole "now I'm a humanitarian thing". I've always wondered if the motivation behind her good works was authentic. After watching the show, I now see that she has transformed several times since I first saw her in "Gia" - each time revealing more of who she really is.
I saw her story in a different light when watching the show. Of course we'll never know what REALLY goes on with the folk on screen, but it appears to me now that her transitions in relationships as well as her humanitarian efforts are a result of real change and evolution within herself. Watching the footage of she and Billy Bob was very interesting. It seemed as if they were TRULY in love - I saw that when he was with her he was able to step into himself and live life on his terms (I saw the same in her). The behavior I used to view as weird or crazy now appeared to be just two people who totally accepted each other for who they were. The show talked about how when she met Maddox, her life changed and her new goal was to become a mother. After adopting her son, I recognized a change occurred in her, making her priorities a little different. What I admire most was that when she changed and her partner didn't, it appears the relationship just ended. I didn't see her holding on or fighting to keep him - it seems like she just allowed what was to be (now obviously we don't know the inside scoop but that's how it looked on this show).
The show went on to briefly talk about how she and Brad Pitt got together. The media coverage made me feel like OMG, Angelina took that woman's husband! I got a different feeling when watching the E! THS. After watching the show, I now feel that his marriage was over and he found in her a mate who was on the same page as he was. I admire her because once he was divorced she didn't let what other people thought about her situation affect if she was going to go after what she wanted or not (and it appears he stepped more into himself as a result of the process). The two have been doing so much good work - on screen and off - it just makes me feel like their union is a real one.
The thing that resonated most with me about Angelina from watching this show was that at no point did she shy away from who she was becoming at the time. She allowed whatever was happening with her to just happen. In the world of Hollyweird image can be everything and many people seek their image from trends that occur outside of themselves. Angelina's image seems to come from within - whether it was a wild and crazy girl in the beginning of her career to an activist and humanitarian now. Authentic change and transformation does come from within and my new thing with Angie forces me to not judge her anymore. I must simply sit back and wait for the next stage of her evolution.