There are few things in my life that are routine. A consistent thing for me has been Saturday morning phone conversations with my Granny. This began years ago when I moved to Indiana. I give her a call every Saturday morning to catch up on what's happening in her world. Sometimes the calls make me sad - my Granny is in touch w/everyone's lives in our families so sometimes her conversation is filled with the doom and gloom of what's happening (who died, who got into a wreck, who got arrested, who got divorced, etc). Sometimes that conversation is so upbeat (who got married, who had a baby, who lost weight and looks great now, etc.). Regardless of what we discuss, it always leaves me grateful that we share the relationship that we do. That's my girl!
This past Saturday we had a interesting conversation. First of all she told me about her Friday night - my Granny says she has no life but she is always out and about. So on Friday her aunt had a birthday and they all went out to dinner then her fav spot, the casino. Apparently they had fun because she didn't get home until midnight! We laughed because after she told me about her night she asked about mine and I told her the truth - that I spent the evening reading at Borders. I wasn't feeling going out but didn't want to stay in so I went to finish a book I'd been reading. She thought that was so funny.
The "good" part of our conversation was about a phone call she'd received. Long story short, the first boy she ever went on a date with called her out of the blue. This was someone she hasn't seen in forever and he just called to talk. They talked a few nights in a row - she said he lived in some northern state which slips my mind now. Having just seen "The Notebook", I immediately began to think OMG, what if this is her long lost love? What if they had something so special and timeless? What if, what if, what if? I expressed my overly excited questions and she told me something I felt I should remember ...
"Every man is not Mr. Right - even at my age. You have to have discernment in matters of love. You can't make some spark be there just because you are alone. Loneliness will make you do crazy things, you better get un-lonely. No one wants a lonely woman."
I was like ok wow! That spoke so much to how I operate in love - I love the idea of love and being in a relationship but sometimes I do make decisions based on loneliness or fear of loneliness instead of how I feel deep down inside. I love my Granny's candor and the lessons I get to learn from her experience. She drops the knowledge ...
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