As a lesson, the "master number" 33 is the number of compassion. It is
called the Christ vibration and requires self-sacrifice, courage and unwavering
commitment to reform , truth and healing. You are on a "mission", and other
teachers will learn from your honesty, discipline and bravery. You are here to
provide sustenance for the hungry, whether it be through food, beauty,
education, ministry or medicine. Yours is the path of "savior". Moving into a 3 cycle indicates: This is a happy, carefree time of life, where free self-expression is ideal. Friends and social activities grow, and much assistance will be found here. Artistic endeavors and any possible use of words, spoken, written, or sung, are richly rewarded during this cycle. Your appearance is important to you now.
- During the next 28 days I'm not going to work (like at a job job; I'll be doing PLENTY of self work). I've saved enough money to carry me for a couple of months (not much room for extras) and I'm going to let the universe support me. I am going to allow myself this time to really spend time w/myself and my thoughts to see what it is I truly desire.
- Each day will start w/my spiritual practice of meditation, yoga, journaling and affirmations.
- At night, I'll end the day with gratitude and prayer.
- I'll consistently exercise - 3x's a week. This is not just to look good during my transition, but to get the energy moving from just being stuck in my head.
- I'm taking a month long course called Astrology, Archetypes and Soul Retrieval. It is four Saturdays and I'm committing to attending and doing the work associated with.
- I'm going to read more - rereading "The Alchemist" is a must but first I'm going to wrap up the four or so other books I'm reading first.
- I'm going to keep a journal of my dreams consistently during this time - I'm a believer that signs and symbols show up in our dreams and I want to pay close attention.
- I'll be eating only nourishing foods - I won't say I'm on a diet but I will say I'm staying away from things I know to be bad for me (fast food, excess sugar, soda, etc).
- I'll be drinking an abundance of water and green tea.
- I'm giving up the green - for 28 days no more "golden times of day" for me. I need to be clear on what's happening so I've packed up my stashes of "stuff" until after the bday. (If you know what I'm referring to good, if not please don't ask.)
- My alcohol consumption will be limited to wine.
- I feel it is necessary to approach this time w/a cleansing attitude so I'll be cleaning my space - getting rid of things unnecessary and no longer useful.
- I'm going to see a doctor for my annual checkup.
- I'm seeing a dentist for my 6 month cleaning.
- I need to switch my voter registration here to NOLA.
- Once a week, I'm going to spend time writing near the river. I love being around water and feel so inspired when I am so once a week, I'm going to get up and get close to the water with my journal and let what comes up come out. (I also desire to drive to the beach at some point but we'll see how that pans out.)
- I'm launching my business - during this month, you'll see my new business unfold (it is so close to finish, I can not wait to share!).
- I'm making dates with myself - I think it is highly necessary to spend time alone with myself during this time.
- I'm going on a letter writing campaign to 33 of my friends and family members who have really helped shape and support me.
- I'm letting go of reality TV. This is by far the hardest thing. Instead I'll spend my TV time watching movies. Particularly classics and documentaries.
I realize this is a hefty list but I think it is so necessary in the unfoldment of who I am. Unlike in the past, I'm not on a mission to chance myself, but rather reveal who I already am. I want to know me, appreciate me and celebrate me. I want to love myself the way my friends do and I'm willing to put in the time and effort. I'm extremely excited about the things to come and I hope you'll stick around for the journey!
If you love something let it go,
If it comes back to you it's yours,
If it doesn't, it never was.
Question: Have you ever let something go and have it come back (this applies to someone's too)? Was that return positive? Please let me know your thoughts on this statement.
Look at this beautiful courtyard, too bad it was too humid to even consider. (I guess that's what I miss most about L.A. - outside dining makes me smile!)
- Do ANY of these kids go to school? WELL I don't know because after several hours no one has gone to class or mentioned their campus life (in the opening credits, one kid is posing in front of what looks like a college). They live in some South Beach mansion and are never shown on campus, discussing campus or doing anything campus-related. Why would you do a show called "College Hill" w/no college stuff being shown?
- Why is it that people don't recognize when they have EVERYTHING in common w/someone else? Two of the girls have an argument that to the best of my knowledge is simply about which one is hotter ... The main contention from both sides is I don't like her because she thinks she's all that. Really?!?!? BOTH of you think you are ALL that. You both do pageants and apparently are good at them. Why can't they bond on their commonalities instead of attack the other for being the same way? They have a fight and one gets kicked out for the season (NOT the one who threw the first punch by the way). After the one girl's departure, the house really divides ... which brings me to my next point:
- Which is my FIRST point - when the heck do they go to school!?!?! If they were in class sometimes maybe they wouldn't have so much freakin' time to be so silly.
- Okay - Kyle. He's a lot. The major thing that stands out about him to me is that he's so afraid of being ridiculed that he picks on others to bond w/people (he's a college-aged young black man that is gay and who has a "dope-fiend" father-I'm sure he faces adversity). He is the MAIN instigator in a lot of the house's drama. It is as if his attitude is let me gang up on someone before people gang up on me. He's a jerk. Loud and instigating. Aggravating. Once again someone whose energy would be well-spent in class or pursuing some sort of talent in an activity he can pursue in college.
- The episode I'm watching now is about the introduction of the "new girl" who replaced the girl who was kicked out for fighting. This new girl just walks in and is immediately attacked for no other reason than she is new. REALLY?!?!? This young lady was super excited and eager for the opportunity she signed up for and I see that opportunity of having a good time being taken away from her. Now, this part did make me think of my college experience. I remember being a part of organizations (sororities, student government, social groups) and I must admit we were not always so welcoming to "new people". Nor do I remember being particularly welcomed into any of these groups. I can only speak for me, but as a "member" of any of those groups, I stood on some imaginary laurels to keep people out. I felt like I should keep folks out of what I fought so hard to get into ... those memories kind of suck - why is it so hard to step into new situations? Is it us just reflecting what was done to us at some point? I wish I would have been stronger and approached letting other folk into "my" stuff w/more openness (instead of feeling like if I didn't like someone they might not be good enough to get into MY group). The sad part is I feel this type of behavior is still happening around us in the "real" world.
- For the first time today, I just heard one person say she was grateful for this opportunity ... shouldn't they ALL be!?!? You are on TV and tons of young people watch your life and imagine if they were in your place. AND you signed up for it so you must have wanted this experience! Be grateful kids!!!
- Why does one guy get so mad that he wants to fight. I get that. What I don't get is why he has to take his clothes off to do so? I've wanted to fight quite a few times and kept my clothes on - I don't get it.
- Overall I am not impressed with this show - mostly because I don't feel the title applies since I never see the kids attend college. But I do think it does reveal some life issues and I can see why it is entertaining. I'd like to just throw out there that if a show aimed at young people who may be considering college is called College Hill, it may be beneficial to talk about the actual college experience.
But I still haven't turned the channel. And that is what watching a day of not so great reality TV will do for you ...
This is his year!
- I'll never move back to Louisiana - if I have to live in Po Dunk, Michigan, it is better than going home.
- I don't ever see myself as owning my own business - I just don't have an entrepreneurial spirit.
- I'll never not have a 9-5 - I need the consistency of a "regular" job and the benefits it brings.
- Are you kidding, me accept the fact I'm not in a relationship? If I accept that I'll be alone forever and I want to be in love.
- I don't know about that meditation stuff - I'll never get into that.
And the list goes on and on.
I have realized that life presents us with opportunities to grow and prosper in ways we "never" would imagine for ourselves. We place ourselves in boxes based on what others believe. Our small self images also place us in self created boxes that limit us and limit our potential.
This year has forced me to take a look at my entire self - even the parts I banned by using the word "never". I have not worked a "regular" job since October of last year but miraculously I am ok and getting my finances in order. I moved back to Louisiana and I didn't die (I always thought I would literally fall out and die if I had to be back here). I'm starting a business - ME! My business - not one where I sought out someone I admired and badgered them for a job. This is my baby - actually bigger than that. It is like I'm being led by something deep, deep inside of me (stay tuned for the big reveal - target date July 1). I found this deep, deep place within me through the art of meditation - another thing I've always been leery of. I always thought meditation was some crap the New Ager's came up with - now I think I'm one of those New Ager's.
Life is a very interesting thing. I've found with me the things I said I'd never do are the very things that drive me the most. I'm living in the moment (something I thought was for the unambitious people who just didn't want to work). I'm recognizing my strengths for myself. I'm allowing things to just be. I NEVER say this coming.